reflection on a losing battle!

i sit writing this post with a whirlpool in my tummy....the sinking feeling when you know you have done something wrong has become passe-i must have sunk down to the core of the earth and popped out the other side now!there is a total lack of coherency as i begin to realize the sheer workloads begging to break me down....like a sly cat playing with its about to be devoured dinner,i am busy either hallucinating-drawing up and conjuring up miserable scenes of pitiless failure.....or dancing to the wild jumpy tunes of the syllabus....

i am by no means weak-neither by body nor by mind....for someone who prized himself on the mental toughness aspect i am afraid i will soon be left with no other option but to revisit my own opinion about myself....this post is a last ditch effort on my behalf to rally a retreating army around for that last decisive thrust forward.....god knows i need it...

what broke my vanguard?

the incredibly obstinate delhi sultanate..

well i am done with it now..need a day more to get on to bury it finally.....but my arms being twisted by statistics and map work of history!!!!the former is asked for 30 marks in GS and i dont want to lose even 1 there....the latter a cool 60 marks in history optionals and there too i wish to score more not less than the average person does!!!!

one last thing-the result comes out in early august....for all concerned that will be the turbo boost needed....i am anxious to know where i stand too...but the fight will be won or lost elsewhere...this war is past and wont matter much in a months time.....the challenge is to go on....when a thousand thoughts pull your battered mind in a zillion directions!